I am having one of those weeks wherein I despise the changes that have gone on in my life since 2005. The good ones are good - having a real job, driving my cruiser, camping, etc... I did Pier Daze last weekend in Belmont Shore with the pirates. Had a great time, slept to the sound of waves crashing on the beach, got some sun. But, because I did that, I had to skip the Marsh on Tuesday because I knew if I didn't I would be too tired to work Wednesday at my real job. This is the change I hate. That it takes me a week to do things that used to take me a day. That I have to exchange one activity for another due to my fatigue level, that I can't make enough money to support my more fun activities because I can't work that many hours in a week. Hate that. The weekend before was wonderful. I took a five day camping trip with several friends. Got to spend 3 of those days with Cabin Boy. Lovely. But now he is going to be scare for a several weeks due to his work load. Sigh.

So I go in to the Marsh this morning and as always first thing say "hi" to Dot. She was sitting inside her strawberry house as she has been lately - she seems to have given up on running in circles and she's been looking very aged lately. So she was fine at 10am as I'm going about my business. A few minutes later Beth looks in Dot's cage and she's laying sideways in the middle of the tank. Beth picks her up and she seemed to be barely alive for a second, then her pink eyes went dark. Sad. We will miss the little circle mouse with the dot. We buried her in the garden under the groundskeeper's window. We had been expecting this day to come soon, but that didn't soften the blow. She had a long full life for a feeder mouse with a neurological disorder and she was loved by many. RIP litte Dot.

Something has taken over my computer and decided that AOL is my default search engine...No, no and no! Then I go to blogdrive to blog and it's acting up on me. I lose the first paragraph and start again. ARGH. Change is BAD sometimes. I just have days/weeks of it hitting me in the face suddenly and there is nothing I can do about it but let myself be bummed out for a few days. Sigh. I will be better soon. I am going to see Star Trek again this afternoon. This weekend I am working the 4th of July celebration at Wilson Park Sat, Sunday going to see Fellowship, the Musical with some Middle Earth friends. Perhaps that will snap me out of my funk.